I kind of just want to update on the email my lecturer sent me. Turns out he just wanted me to submit all the assignments so he can help me pass the unit. What a kind soul. He even offered me an hour to discuss the lecture materials. So yeah, I have an hour of one-on-one tutorial with the professor next Monday.

And today I suddenly feel a strong push behind me making me want to do my assignments well and now. I also feel like I'm not gonna fail this semester. This makes me realise how some things weirdly become better by just talking to someone, no matter you know them or not. Memories of recent events also flashed in my mind, making me agree more to my conclusion. My anak usrah was telling me the other night how she couldn't bring herself up for qiam. That night we kinda talked about it a bit, I offered help but she said she wanted to do it on her own. Next morning, she texted me saying she did. I didn't do anything, only a quiet prayer but the rest was Allah's doing.

So this is a message to my future self: whenever feeling down, just talk to someone. It'll get better.

This is FRHN feeling motivated.