It was almost 1 in the a.m. when I was walking home, body quite shaking because I was too hungry. I did eat for breakfast, lunch and dinner but I seem to have lost control of my appetite. Ate some crackers and now I'm dedicating several minutes to write before I continue finishing my lab report that was due two days ago.

Talk about losing control, I have also lost the control to my sleep. I wanted to stay up doing work but I just can't control when my eyelids close. My appetite has gone huge. My sleep drive has gone huge. What is happening to me? I do realise that those are some of the little signs of depression. I don't know, I just haven't felt really empty yet like I was last time. Do you know if depression is coming or does it just happen?

I received an email from my professor, the same professor that told me to pull up my socks last semester, that he wanted to see me tomorrow regarding my long-due report. I'm so scared. No, not scared of him. But I'm scared that I have to converse to a stranger and I'm scared knowing the fact that I might have to open up to someone I don't know. I guess I'm still living in my tiny bubble. And I don't like it being poked. You know how people say introverts can be extroverts if they want to. Well, I try sometimes… but I fail. It wasn't fun.

I haven't replied to his email. I'm not planning to see him. I'm forcing myself to stay awake to finish this goddamn report and submit it to him tomorrow before he knows it. Wish me well.

This is FRHN, clueless as ever.