I was reading the Quran, something I really treasured whenever I get the chance to. I remembered what my previous murabbi once said, "If you don't feel okay, read (Quran) a lot. Read more than you usually do." and I get why. It has this special power to heal the heart, as it's supposed to, and whoever doesn't read and learn it would...
Staring at the blank page, I sat on this black chair thinking if I still have a heart to feel. Staring at the blank page, I sat on this black chair thinking if I still have a heart to feel. ...
"I can feel the exhaustion and tiredness from you." The stranger woman, who now I can call a friend, said to me. I've only met her a few times, but on our first meeting I was already crying in front of her. I cried on my first time meeting a stranger. The past few months have been exhausting, more mentally than physically. I'd...
Being me, I'll always fall back to my old rhythm not long after I seem to recover. Did I ever recover anyways? It feels like I'm always in this sad state – repeating the same patterns over and over again. Sometimes I feel like I'm already dead, I've become a ghost walking around a life trying to remember how it feels to have...
I haven't moved from this seat at the library since seven hours ago. This morning was bright and clear, but right now it's dark and raining pretty heavily, a lightning just struck and I'm putting my Depressed playlist on shuffle that lasted a couple hours, then I started changing songs every now and then because I'm not sure of how to feel anymore....
I'm not sure if anyone does this as well but, I have this habit where I go to my own page to read what I've previously written before I start on a new post. And to see how positive I was feeling makes me wonder if I was being fake or real. When am I real – is it when I am feeling...
I'm on a break (from becoming a muslim daie? Since when…) for chinese new year and I drove home with my sister and uncle for 8 hours. I've been home for two days and I've literally done nothing. I haven't checked my phone since and never gone out. Like usual. How many times have I wished that things would change but fail so...
